The New Testament says about Moses, “And Moses was learned in all the wisdom of the Egyptians, and was mighty in words and deeds. Now when he was forty years old, it came into his heart to visit his brethren, the children of Israel. And seeing one of them suffer wrong, he defended and avenged him who was oppressed, and struck down the Egyptian. For he supposed that his brethren would have understood that God would deliver them by his hand, but they did not understand.” Acts 7: 22-25. God in order to free the Israelites from slavery through Moses permitted Moses to be educated by the Egyptians. Moses in his early years perceived that God would free his Hebrew brethren through him. Perhaps he thought he had everything that was required, because he had received the highest level of academic education as an Egyptian prince. We have always assigned first position to scholastic education, thinking that, with the highest instruction, a person can achieve anything he wants in life. Such thinking sounds good in theory, but in practice it doesn’t work well.
When a person’s life has not been transformed by the power of God, if he hasn’t developed his spiritual values, all his scholastic titles are useless. We are not underestimating academic instruction, but the spiritual instruction should have first priority, and God is the only one who can instruct us. Jesus said, “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.” John 15: 5. When Moses was 40 years old, based on his perception, he planned his own strategy to obtain the favor of his Hebrew brothers, and so he defended a Hebrew from an Egyptian so they would see him as the leader who could free them from slavery. But his action didn’t win him their trust. The narrative says, “And the next day he appeared to two of them as they were fighting, and tried to reconcile them, saying, ‘Men, you are brethren; why do you wrong one another?’ But he who did his neighbor wrong pushed him away, saying, ‘Who made you a ruler and a judge over us? Do you want to kill me as you did the Egyptian yesterday?’ Then, at this saying, Moses fled and became a dweller in the land of Midian.”Acts 7: 26-29.
The reason why Moses panicked and fled was because he had acted on his own, and he was sure he had made a mistake. When God is guiding us, there is never doubt, fear or guilt. Maybe freeing the Israelites had become an obsession for him, and although it was God's plan, the timing was not right. He still needed to receive God's training. Moses needed to put aside his plan and tell God, "What do you want me to do?" God sent him for another 40 years to the desert to herd sheep, and instructed him there in that solitude, in that intimacy. After God’s training, Moses was ready to free the people from slavery. In the solitude with our Lord Jesus Christ, He trains us in a way we can understand. Everything becomes clear. “We can only be used by God after we allow Him to show us the deep, hidden areas of our own character. It is outstanding how ignorant we are about ourselves! We don’t even recognize the envy, laziness, or pride within us when we see it. But Jesus will reveal to us everything.” Oswald Chambers.
God is the only one who knows us as we really are. And when we admit we don’t know, and we ask, that is when He teaches us. Anyone who believes he knows does not ask. God has a different plan each of us. Sometimes we find someone who we admire greatly because we see God using him in a powerful way, and we wish our life would be just like his. We want to know what he did to reach that level, what book he studied, what seminar he attended, that we might replicate his life. But God trained him. it was not something external. A strong character of holiness is not a product of human culture. It is God's creation. It is achieved by spending time alone with God, allowing Him to correct us, and us learn His lessons. It is not magic. It is not something you can purchase. It was not learned through scholastic instruction. It is God's grace in action once the individual is ready and determined to become His student. It is the intimacy reached in those moments of solitude with God. That is when God takes charge of our lives and instructs us.
“Deep within you is everything that is perfect, ready to radiate through you and out into the world. It will cure all sorrow and pain and fear and loss because it will heal the mind that thought these things were real, and suffered out of its allegiance to them. You can never be deprived of your perfect holiness because its Source goes with you. Wherever you go. You can never suffer because the Source of all joy goes with you wherever you go. You can never be alone because the Source of all life goes with you wherever you go. Nothing can destroy your peace of mind because God goes with you wherever you go.” ACIM L.41.3-4. All human wisdom did not prepare Moses for the work that God had given him. God gave him everything he was going to need, just like He gave it to us. But we must be vigilant so that when God brings it to our mind, we can learn what we must do. When God had transformed our life, we don’t run in fear, because He gave us power, love, and self-control. Each brought his own plan, and even though it is different from the others, it will be used under the power of God. If we insist on being what we were not cut out to be, we will be left sighing over what might have been, but now can never be. Accept the plan God gave you. No one can do it better than you.
“Whoever believes in Me, as Scripture has said, rivers of living water will flow from within them.” John 7:38